Awesome People

4th September 2011

Initially, I'm supposed to go back to KL with my brother and sister. Something came up and I decided not to follow them back to KL. Since, I haven't gone for any raya visit to my friends' house thus I agreed with Fadhilah's suggestion. Picked her up at her house then went straight to Illiany's house in Beserah. Chit chat a bit, then later on Ezzati arrived. Continue eating then went to Nadira's house at Tok Sira. Eat and eat. About 1pm headed to Arnie's house in Taman Guru. Ate delicious nasi dagang, satay and cute home-made cookies exclusively made by Arnie and her mom. Met few people there, Aresha, Jeega and the guys. Performed our Zohor prayer then around 3pm I think we went to Aishah's open house. More people there; Shadjihar, Habibah, Shafiq, Sarah, the twins, Rahimi, Elida, Elyana and the list goes on. Too many people,like seriously! Then our last stop is Ezzati's house. Ate noodles cooked by umi, very nice! Sent back Nadira and Illiany then Fadhilah. Yesterday I would say is an eating day for me but I didn't ate much  because I'm the one who's driving and I'm afraid if I'm too full I can't focus on driving but on my sleepy head.

Anyway, yesterday was awesome! Full of laughters and stories. Catching up after years of not meeting up with each other (some of them). But to drive along with the girlfriends; Fadh, Yanie, Zati and Nad was indeed a fantastic experience I would say. Thank you girls for cheering up my day. Hope to see you girls next year insya Allah! And Illiany, I would say see you in London adik manis! But this eid will be much greater if only Hafizah and Afifa are here to tag along but too bad they went back to college already. Hope to see them this Saturday but still I don't put very much hope on it since everyone must be very busy. Anyhow, prayers and blessings from them are already enough for me.

Thinking of yesterday, after years away from school days; some are still the same, some change for better and some change oppositely. Some are still annoying as ever, some are still charming and sweet and some are still the chatter box. But deep in my heart, all praises go to Allah as He lead me to a better path. Perhaps if I don't enter KMB maybe I won't become like what I am today. But perhaps, if I go to somewhere else, I would become a better person. But these things are beyond our control and of course limited by our imagination. It has been written in Luh Mahfuz, your destiny. But it doesn't mean that our destiny is fixed that we don't have to work hard in life. I'm not a brainy but I know if I work extremely hard to understand something I would eventually get something in the end. What I believe is, CHANGE is a MUST. And of course we must change for better. We can't just stay in our comfort zone and believing that everything gonna be okay. And for me, one of my reason not to stay in Malaysia because I want to get out of my comfort zone. You know being a very dependent child to my parents, calling them every single day back in KMB, going back home every single weekend; sometimes when to think that I'm leaving for Ireland, I think I'm crazy. Haha, seriously! If it is the old me, for sure I would say this is a crazy thing to do. Getting out from my comfort zone, is so not me. That is why I never intended to apply for scholarship before. But someone did that for me, and here I am. Thanks to that someone. I know I'm gonna cry at the airport, I know I'm gonna cry when I listen to You Raise Me Up song, I know I'm gonna cry when I'm praying but I think all these soon-going-to-happen moments will eventually mean something  very significant for me.in my LIFE. Even when I'm in KMB, I can feel that I love my family very-very much. Staying apart make our bond stronger and we even become more caring to each other.

When someone ask me, how long are you gonna stay in Ireland? I said "2.5 years there and the rest in Malaysia". Then, that someone will make weird expression and yeah I know that expression mean "she did not get a good result, is it? that's why twinning". Haha, to that someone you are absolutely wrong. I didn't get a bad result, its just not excellent BUT it is good enough to apply for full course overseas. I choose by myself to do twinning though i had the opportunity to apply for Australia/New Zealand. The thing is I want to get clinical trainings in Malaysia, get used to Malaysia's diseases and hospital's systems. That will bring a lot of benefit to me in the future, especially during the two years of housemanship. I would say, the two years of horsemanship are indeed a very critical period. Some give up medicine during their housemanship due to stress and incapability to cope with the work load that we have in Malaysia. And of course I don't want to be in that group as I am very determine to achieve what I want in my life. To be an oversea graduate won't make you special. It is just the mentality of the people that look very high upon those oversea graduates. For me, what make you special is not from where are you from but from what your heart is made up. Sincerity and passion are compulsory. And I'm praying hard to Allah that my intention to join this world will stay and I will never give up hope. I will become a fighter forever in my life. And of course in fighting the nafsu to reach the ultimate goal in life.

I think I talked too much this time. by the way, Happy Eidulfitri I wish to everyone! And I'm sorry if ever I hurt anyone of you; whether by words/expressions/gestures/acts. Its sad to leave Ramadhan, but let us pray every day to Allah that we will meet Ramadhan again next year insya Allah. =)