23rd June 2011
Oh, well it's a day I turned 20. Alhamdulillah, actually I never imagine I'll live up to this age. Still remember my mum always said to me that, when we were small kids we always have this age talk. My brother would say when he become 40 years old, he'll be a millionaire already ( in which I think he's only few steps away in becoming one though he's not even 30 yet! ), and my sister will say she'll become rich and buy houses and I, being only 5 years old at that time cannot imagine anything fancy except for being a dentist. Yeah, back then I always have to visit dentist at Klinik Fauziah somewhere in Wangsa Melawati. She's very nice and everytime I went there for treatement she'll give me stickers. Since then, dentist always in my list of what-I-want-to-be. Apparently I'm not heading that way. Thanks to trauma I had after my research for Intel science project in which I had to examine bad teeth plus the euwwy smell. I don't think so I can handle it and my neck couldn't stand to do the work. So, here I am choosing medicine to be my future career. Blessed with nice people in my life ( Thank you Allah! ), I'll never celebrate my birthday alone. Last year my girlfriends throw me a birthday prank. This year, though I'm alone at home, thanks to my amazing best friend Ezzati. She sent me a handmade cinnamonroll all the way from her house which is 10km away (I think). It is something like cinnabon, sweet and very nice. By the way, in my last posts, I wished for birthday cards right? And I got it!! Not only one but three!! Yeay!! It is more than what I was expected. I was expecting none actually. Thanks to my classmate, Adibah ,,beloved room mate, Farahin and my form five classmate, Aishah!! Love you guys very much!!! And the words really touched me.
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| from Farahin and Aishah..=) |
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| the cinnamon roll..thank you,zati!! |
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| the cinnabon and card from adibah.=) |
6th July 2011
Fast forward a bit. This is the important highlight I think. The day before some of my friends started to ask teachers about their results. Well, the teachers get to know one day earlier than us. Being me, I don't have the gut to ask my teachers. You know, the feeling of inferiority always inhibit me from doing so. Yes, I'm so afraid if I ask around and ended up hurting my teacher's feeling and kill their expectations on me. And actually I didn't tell any of my family members that today is the result day because I want to view it by myself without my mum beside me. But I guess, when I woke up in the morning I just can't hide the anxiousness and being a mother, my mum quickly sensed it and I was caught. It was 11am when I was reciting Yassin with my mum and brother, Pn Mawarzah texted me;
" Salam. Congrats u got 7 for Business and B for EE. Love u. Pn Mawarzah"
I was screaming and like aaaaaaa,alhamdulillah!!! Business was hard for me back then I think as I don't have time to check back my answers. And I'm glad that I meet my teacher's expectations though I did not manage to get an A for my EE but its okey. She told me that under her supervision, only 3 got B and the rest are C. So, I am satisfied enough. And that sms really kill my mood for the day, I don't even have the appetite to eat. And my mum brought me for a facial treatment + spa. Haha, my mum is cute right? The thing is, when it is the time for the result to be out we are not at home yet. My family are having dinner at KLCC and had a chit-chat session with my brother's friend. So, as I cannot wait anymore I decided to view the result using my mum's iphone. My phone could not reach the same website as it requires username and what not. Alhamdulillah, I met the requirement of 36 excluded bonus point and I got 2 extra points. So, total of 38 points. The highest achievement in my IB life. All this while the highest point I got is 33 and I'm so inferior and not confident of myseld whether I'll survive IB or not. Thanks to Allah for listening to my prayers and especially my parents and grandparents who did solat hajat for me everyday. Support from teachers, friends and family are the one that keep me moving and not giving up hope. My parents are speechless because they are extremely happy as I had many difficulties throughout the two years of IB. Being an asthamatic patient ( new in the list ), there are many things that I am allergic to and I cannot do. So, I ended up going back home every single weekend without fail. Thanks to my big brother, for the patience to drive me and pick me up at KMB. And when I'm at home, I rarely study because most of the time I'll be sleeping to get recover. I guess Allah knows the best for me and He help me along the way, guiding me through his beautiful verses. So, my next destination is yet to be determined. Whether it will be Ireland or Malaysia. It depends on my health status and other things to be considered. Its a tough decision to be made! Really tough ones.
7th July 2011
Did I ever told you that I still have a great-grandfather? I lost my grandfather when I was 12 years old. And sadly, I lost my great-grandfather when I am 20 years old. He suffered peptic ulcer and was admitted to ICU for about nine days I think. That is why, I could not update my blog because we always travelled back to Muar to visit him. He was a strong guy, went for two operations but being a 92 years old he could stand and recover. I remembered everytime we visited him, ayah will whisper to him the word Allah. And amazingly his heart beat will increase everytime the word Allah is whispered to his ears. I really adore him because as 92 years old, he is really tough. He does not suffer any disease nor memory loss. He still can remember his great grandchildren's name and even his great-great-grandchildren. When he was healthy, he still can drive in Muar. May his soul blessed by Allah and may I'll see him in Jannah.
This a few of things happened to me. There are many but I think this will be the only piece of it that I would like to share. To think of it, our life is all planned by Allah. We can only work hard for it and pray hard to Allah and the outcome of it can only be decided by Him. Like in my great grandfather's case, apparently he actually getting better after the operations. But I guess Allah love him more, Alllah called him back. And for my IB, I'm not a genius but I know if I keep working and believing Allah will grant me something bigger than I ever tought of. Even my friends who worked really hard but did not achieve their target, but they won something even bigger. It is the love to Allah. They accepted what Allah gave them with an open heart and they can still keep smiling. I think it is more meaningful for them, for everyone of us. Faith is what we need to have.
And talking about current thing that happened in Malaysia. For me, everything that encounter to our mind, things that we see and hear we must justify it first. I mean we could not make one-sided judgement. Everything has the negative and positive sides of it and we could not pour in all our emotions into it as you'll not be seen as a wise person but rather emotionally unstable. The choice of words also sometimes I think was too harsh as if you are not someone who are educated like you always bragged about. The right words if used with the right intonation and right expression will give the greatest impact of all. Words spoken comes with great responsibility. If you are not an expert at something, shut your mouth but open your mind and dig for more information about it.
I think that is all that I want to share. It is all about opinion and respect. Listen to others and argue intellectually. If you disagree with me, I'm so sorry. This is just an opinion. Till then, take care! =)
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